75 Songs you may not have heard before, but really need to!!

... in no particular order at all:

1. The War - Angels and Airwaves
2. Somewhere Only We Know - Keane
3. One Day More - Les Miserables
4. Real Love - Toby Lightman
5. Feel This - Bethany Joy Galeotti
6. Lightning Crashes - Live
7. Martyr - Rusted Root
8. Stranded - Plumb
9. Collie Man - Slightly Stoopid
10. Mannequin - Britney Spears
11. Defying Gravity - Wicked
12. When the Rain Comes - Third Day
13. Merry Christmas, Baby - Hanson
14. Butterfly - Jason Mraz
15. Mexico- Jump, Little Children
16. Underground - Ben Folds
17. Light Surrounding You - Evermore
18. Come Thou Fount of Ev'ry Blessing - David Crowder Band
19. Cliffs of Dover - Eric Johnson
20. Zombie - The Cranberries
21. All These Things That I've Done - The Killers
22. Playin' In The Creek - Silers Bald
23. Man Overboard - Blink 182
24. Soulmate - Natasha Beddingfeld
25. Small Town Kid - Eli Young Band
26. Sorry to a Friend - Edwin McCain
27. Decode - Paramore
28. I Don't Wanna Wait - Paula Cole
29. Monkeywrench - Foo Fighters
30. Don't Censor Me - Audio Adrenaline
31. Shooting Stars -Edwin McCain
32. The Captain - Kasey Chambers
33. Comfortable - John Mayer
34. That Girl - Lindsay Lohan
35. Your Mistake - Sister Hazel
36. The Beauty of Who You Are - Marc Broussard
37. Hey Girl - OAR
38. You Don't Know What Love Is - The White Stripes
39. How - Lisa Loeb
40. Repulsion - Matt Bolt
41. Hang On Sloopy - The Yardbirds
42. Cell Block Tango - Chicago (the musical)
43. Amsterdam - Guster
44. Yellow - Coldplay
45. The Sweater Song - Weezer
46. Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard and Marketa Iglova
47. Kate - Ben Folds Five
48. Assassin - John Mayer
49. Be Thou My Vision - Ginny Owens
50. Don't Stop Believin' - Glee Cast Version
51. Angel of Music - The Phantom of the Opera
52. Roslyn - Bon Iver
53. Claire de Lune- Debussy
54. From the Moment - Michael Warren
55. The Best Day - Taylor Swift
56. Regulators - Warren G feat. Nate Dogg
57. Overboard - Ingrid Michaelson
58. Diamonds on the Souls of Her Shoes - Paul Simon
59. Fool In The Rain - Led Zeppelin
60. Walking in Place - Perpetual Groove
61. Southern Girl - Amos Lee
62. Look After You - The Fray
63. Paperweight - Joshua Radin & Schyuler Fisk
64. Can't Stop - Mozella
65. Little Lion Man - Mumford & Sons
66. You Are the Best Thing - Ray LaMontagne
67. La Vie Boheme - Rent The Musical
68. Gravity - Sara Bareilles
69. Seabreeze - Tyrone Wells
70. Romeo and Juliet - Edwin McCain
71. Ruby - Kaiser Chefs
72. Amsterdam - Guster
73. Both Sides Now - Joni Mitchell
74. Good Life - One Republic
75. They Weren't There - Missy Higgins

It's so convenient to listen on grooveshark.com ... if you haven't been to that website before, it is so awesome! you can listen to pretty much any song, any time and it's free, not downloading, just live streaming, like live radio. matt listens while he's working and it was so funny the other day he searched for himself on there and someone put some of his songs from an album they made in high school on there!! check him out! :)

dreams..

well, last night i dreamed that i was at the jcrew outlet in destin. i had all of these wonderful swimsuits and cute dresses, and sandals, and shirts for matt... the list goes on. and it was hot and humid... curly hair... salt in the air......crab legs in my belly.. sigh.

im typically a winter girl. when it gets hot outside, i cant WAIT for fall weather and sweatshirts. but after this cold, cooped-up-in-the-house winter. i am so ready for the beach!!! not necessarily for the greenville humidity to cause me to breathe in thick, water-saturated air when i get in my car after being in the grocery store for 10 freakin minutes ... or sticking to the leather in dad's convertible... or sweating to death just walking out to get mail from the mailbox. but THE BEACH! i may even be so lucky as to go twice this summer. once with matt and once for my cousins bachelorette weekend. i really hope that's the case. and if it is... these are JUST A FEW of the things i wish to purchase for my trips :)

my quote for the week...

Dont let fear keep you from living abundantly in Christ or steal your joy! When we trust God, we have the confidence to face problems as they come rather than sit & anticipate them.

valentine's day

we had a good weekend. thursday night i cooked matt a very "matt" dish. i made Penne with Chicken and Bacon in a Creamy Pepper Jack Sauce. It was so good!! I thought I probably wouldn't really like the "spiciness" of it but it really wasn't too bad, just a kick! Also, I don't know why, I guess maybe it goes along with the anxiety I've had lately, but I haven't been a very good eater or had a good appetite for a while. I can't eat chicken?? It's so weird. I feel like its a quirk you'd get during pregnancy or something but for some reason, the three times lately I've tried to just try a BITE of it, I get so weak and woozy. Also, I've never really liked/eaten bacon. So any vegetarians out there, you can eat that dish too, I just left the chicken and bacon off my plate and put it all on Matt's. :)

Anyway, we did that Thursday night bc we thought we had plans with my brother and his gf friday night but then it snowed. That was ok with me though, the snow was so beautiful coming down! I went out and just stood in it several times and just tried to take in the calmness and serenity of it all. It was a good feeling just to stand outside and breathe. This is how our house looked in the snow..
Anyway, we had a fun night Friday, watching the snow come down and the opening ceremonies of the Olympics. Saturday we relaxed and then I decided I may be alright to make it to dinner and a movie. I haven't really left the house except just riding in the car with matt when he goes somewhere on a quick errand, but haven't really gotten out of the car. So as you can imagine, when we got to the restaurant I got really nervous to go in and just tried to think about other things. Like how Matt was so sweet to take me to Monterrey's. A lot of people wouldn't be so thrilled to eat at Monterrey's for their "Valentine's Dinner" but i was ecstatic! :) See, in college, I prrrrrobably went to Monterrey's about 4 out of 7 nights a week. I am not kidding. at all. And matt just loved me soooo much that he would always go with me, and never TELL ME that he was SO SICK of it and REALLY wanted to go somewhere else. So, for about the past year and a half he never has the appetite for mexican food, poor thing got so sick of it, so I dont get the treat of going with him to eat mexican lately. I told him to just pick where we were going, and he drove there! :) It was very good!! Then we went to go see Valentine's Day. It was SO cute!!! We both really liked it. Several times, once at the beginning, we were SO close to leaving (bc I was feeling so terrible, anxietywise). I even had my coat on and purse in hand, but I kept making myself just stick it out and stay. It was hard, but I got through it and was really proud of myself when it was over. I had made it. My first successful "leaving the house" event in about 2 weeks..and I made it through dinner AND a movie.

Not surprisingly, that took just about all my energy and today was a really crappy day. I didn't feel well at all. It was alright though, because at the end of the day, I got a wonderful Valentine's surprise. Matt wrote a song for me and recorded it onto a CD. It was so sweet! I am going to get him to try to upload it to the blog so you all can hear! :) Hope everyone else had a special weekend with their sweeties! <3 now... let's get ready for spring!!

prayer

hey everyone. first, i just want to thank you all for your sweet concern and comments checking in to see if im ok. originally, we thought that once i had these tests done, i could rest assured in knowing what was wrong with me, that i was going to be ok, and could move on with everyday life. it has been quite the opposite these past couple of weeks. it turns out, that now that i know what is wrong, and that i can pass out so quickly without warning, i am constantly worried that it is going to happen. i have the worst anxiety imaginable and honestly, i am scared to leave the house.

i tried to go to my anatomy class in simpsonville for the first time since the procedure. i made it there, sat for 5 minutes of it, it was a class on blood (of all things, that is one of my triggers) and i just couldn't do it. i had one of the worst panic attacks ive had. laid in my car for a while, and had to go home. since then, i haven't been driving. i've gone to my doctor who's prescribed me to an antianxiety medicine and im hoping that it helps. basically, im a nervous wreck, and the last thing i want to do is turn into a hermit that never leaves home.

i say all of this, not to throw a pity party for myself and have everyone feel sorry for me, but to explain how hard this is for me and reach out to you in search of prayers. i know so many of you who read my blog are dilligent in prayer and have very strong relationships with the Lord, and if you could keep me in your thoughts and prayers this week, it would be greatly appreciated. pray that God will take away the nervous feelings and the anxiety, and that my medicine would be effective and not hindering.

it's not easy for me to reach out for help. especially lately having to ask people to drive me around, taking me to the doctor, or to the pharmacy. having to get matt to do the grocery shopping. etc. im tired of having to rely on everyone else and most of the time, feel like im burdening them, asking so much. but i am trying to settle with the fact that they love me and they want to help, and i'd be doing the same thing for them if they were in my situation. thanks for you prayers this week!! ill update soon.

brittney